...And Waiting

Still waiting... still no period... having to practically physically restrain myself from taking the pregnancy test that I have in my bathroom cabinet. I could have taken it as soon as my period was late (Thursday) but I have this thing with taking those tests really early. If it comes out positive and then I miscarry, that will be really hard. But if my period just starts late (even if it's because of a miscarriage), at least then I won't have had the joy of the positive test, so the fall won't be as far! So I am waiting until I am at least a week late... I will probably take the test next Thursday so that I can call the doctor's office on Friday if it's positive. It scares me to think that I might really be pregnant now. Today we went to the big garage sale, and there were all kinds of baby clothes and toys and furniture and stuff, and I really wanted to buy some, but I couldn't. I did buy some kid books, but I can get away with them because I'm such a book fiend. Bobbie actually had the cutest outfit with a scottie on the front, would have been good for a boy or a girl, and I really, really, REALLY wanted it, but I just couldn't do it. It's hard to think that, if I am pregnant, I'll still have to wait until the end of February or the beginning of March to tell my family. How in the world am I going to keep a secret that long?!