Hello, Baby Blog

Ok, well... no one will be reading this for quite some time... but I still need a place to vent. I had planned to vent to Martha when I was planning to get pregnant this fall, but she left! As much as I love Jamie, I'm not close enough to her yet to feel comfortable sharing this kind of thing with her. But I need somewhere to vent the frustration! So... the long and the short of it is that, obviously, we are trying to have a baby. We wanted to get pregnant in September or October, because that would fit well with my school schedule (isn't it funny how we think we have a plan). So the goal was to get pregnant, and, if we weren't pregnant by November, we would stop trying and wait another year. Those of you who tried a plan like that, well, you can imagine how much we wanted to give up trying after we weren't pregnant in November... NOT AT ALL! So we made the decision to just go with it, and let God work in His time (I know, what a concept!), and deal with the school repercussions as they come. And that's what we're doing, albeit not very patiently! As of now I have been off b/c since August... so this is the fourth month that we've been trying. Right now I am in the lovely in-between time. The last couple months my period has started on like Wednesday, stopped after just one day, then started again that weekend. Well, yesterday it started, and now it's stopped again, although I can feel the PMS, so I imagine it will be back by this weekend. It just sucks because it is quite the roller coaster! Josh's comment was "Well, now isn't the best time to be pregnant anyway because then you'd be due at the beginning of the school year." Which is true... but not really what I wanted to hear!! :) Anyway... so that's where we are right now... trying, but not really trying... just not taking birth control, and feeling like we've been hit by a train every time my period starts...